There’s a business here called Positive Passions that’s started up a service. It’s still in its infancy so attendance levels are small but they hope as more people find out about it they’ll be able to target for demographic a bit better. Next date night is for gays and lesbians so if any Saskatoon and area readers are or know singles who are and would be interested in doing that, contact them. The one after that is for older folks (40 up maybe?) so you can pass that around, too. It was pretty fun and quite the mixed bag of potentials.
I don’t know if I came across as someone worth seeing again, though. I suck at trying to sell myself to people. I always assume my interests won’t be interesting enough to generate interest long term. Lacking a bit of confidence there, I think. I don’t have travel stories or interesting job talk. I’m not a sports fanatic or video game player. I rarely watch television, I don’t have much in the way of hobbies beyond this blog.. What do I have going for me? That winds up being the question I ask myself.
Yeah, so anyway, the dates. I’m reporting on the fact that I never mentioned my atheism/Freethinker involvement to any of the guys I chatted with last night. And, I only mentioned my writing on a blog to one of them but choked about how to explain what I write about. “Social issues and human rights,” is roughly how I phrased it, I think. Accurate, and yet not entirely. Didn’t want to “scare him off” or something.
Hell if I know. Acting cagey can be a self-defense mechanism, I guess, but now I feel like I willingly caged my freethinking wonderful self up instead of being open about what really does make me me.
Religious people never seem to have that trouble. Of the bunch last night, only one young fellow mentioned his involvement with his church, and said, “I want to be a role model.”
“Everybody needs those,” is all I replied. (And then I ticked the “No Second Date” box when the whistle blew, but not specifically because of that. Still a little residual guilt, though.)
Maybe it doesn’t matter on a casual date level but if my aim is a serious relationship with someone at some point, my godlessness is nothing I’d want to hide. It flavours every part of my being, from what I want to do on Sundays (nothing or Freethinker meeting — good one coming up on Sunday: a woman pastor’s going to talk about feminism and challenges within her church or something.) to what I read about (see any blog post to date) to who my friends are.
I should feel confident about stating that I’m in a freethinker group at the very least, or even the skeptics. That might be appealing to some of them. Bells of alarm to others, I suppose, but if that’s the case then they’d never be the ones I’d want to devote a lot of time to anyway, right?
Well, see if I get a call from Positive Passions later today. If not, there’s always next time. At least it gets me out meeting more people. Slightly better than using an internet date site where many never put a picture up and attempts at contact with the ones who do get utterly ignored anyway.
Wish me luck…